My Last Baby

Steve and I debated a bit weather or not to have a 5th baby.  But really there wasn't much of a debate. We both felt certain that there was one more spirit waiting up in heaven to join our family. We also feel confident that this baby will complete us.  It will be our last baby.  We feel good about this decision and I am at peace with it.  So I'm determined to soak it all up.  I will cherish this last pregnancy no matter how ugly or uncomfortable I get.  When my sweet baby arrives I will hold her longer and tighter, knowing she is my last.  To me there is nothing better in life than holding a precious brand new baby.  I could stare at their perfect little face and just breathe them in all day long. I will enjoy my time with her at night when everyone is sleeping but the two of us.  I will sink into my baby bliss place.  I will love every second of every bit of it.   I will not get so busy or overwhelmed that I forget to completely enjoy my last baby and  when she gets bigger and older I guarantee you I will cry.  All sorts of tears.  Happy ones because my kids are so great and funny and wonderful.  Sad ones because the baby phase of my life will be coming to an end and that's sad!